Saying Goodbye....

          In life there are things that we have to do that we do not necessarily want to do.When we come across these scenarios integrity is key.The way we decide to handle these situations have an extreme impact on our future.I never though that at this point in my life I would have to say goodbye to so much.However, looking over the entire idea it appears that if I can not say goodbye to certain things my vertical will be challenged greatly.My forward movement will be hindered if I continue to let my horizontal affect my distance between my destiny and I.So. with that being said, I was way more effective when I was solo.Relying too much on the shoulders of others only to realize that the shoulder I lean on is only as strong as the shoulder thats leaning.Truth... So I have prepared myself to back off from friends ,relatives until I am able to be the leader they need me to be..The Leader I need me to be..So I'm saying goodbye...For now..

What Men Want.....

So...You think because your skin is light or your butt is big or your a freak that you will land a good man or possibly a husband..What if I could tell you what men really want?Would it change your approach?Would you carry yourself the same way?Let's find out....(Before I start I understand that my Player card will be revoked...lol) Men are very complex , for that matter so are women but of the two the men are the least understood.Women have the misconception that men are just sex crazed,cheating,animals (Definition may vary depending on who you talk to).But actually there are multiple sides to a man that compose his character.Depending on what you appeal to determines the man you get.Now men have three sides to there make up, No.1 The animal instinct , No.2 The spiritual side, No. 3 The carnal side.
Allow me to explain the differences...Most men have this animal instinct that is triggered by the slightest thing.First through the eyes , the animal instinct of a man wants what he sees.Once this has been triggered he will stop at nothing to get it, I mean he will say anything and everything to get what he wants.It can be compared to a Lion chasing a deer and the lion hasn't eaten in three weeks..The smell of a womans perfume,the arch in her back,her walk,all these play a part in triggering the animal instinct of a man..I caution you this is not what you want to appeal to,right now.How do you know a man is operating in this instinct?Here are a few ways to determine.. 1.Catching him watch you walk away for an extended period of time..2. Excessive touching of the leg area or back area.3. Frequent conversations about the way he views your body or sex conversations period.,Now this is not always a bad thing,but it has to be tamed and used in its proper place.Now I'm going to detour from the spiritual and carnal side because I realize that there kind of self explanatory and get right to what a man wants..Men do not want a LOUD WOMAN..He will definitely have sex with you because he figures if your that loud in the street your probabaly loud in the bedroom...(True).Men want a woman that is meek, reserved,quite type, has sexy demeanor but not a slut.A woman that wants to follow instead of lead.A woman that doesnt try to control the relationship.If women will hold a standard it will cause men to have to raise there standards .Women call men immature but actually men and women suffer from a case of immaturity..If you want a good man the key is proverbs 31...The world feeds the mans animal instinct, women please change the world by changing yourselves..

F%#$ The World

I remeber when I was younger and I would be in my room listening to Tupac. I mean, we remember how pac used to be on the track " If they bury me,bury me as a G nigga no need to worry I expect retaliation in a hurry, I see Death Around the Corner"  That used to be bumping in my room all day .Pac would spit so much knowledge in his verse's and at the time I really didn't understand what some of the stuff meant but one thing stood out to me.The phrase "F&%$ the world" I could play Pac all day but when my momma heard that she always responded "Turn that shit off , I'm not having that". I wondered why....For 14 years I wondered why...And now I realize what he meant.He wasn't speaking of all the people in the world directly but the system that was setup and the way people are, the mind set of this civilization..I agree because of some of the things that have been shown to me suggest that I really should feel this way..The way these gas prices keep climbing and no one knows why.The fact that the governent lies to us, they try and kill us daily but my people still stand behind them.How can you be black and hold an american flag in your hand.Our people were dragged here, not by our free will. They was just putting dogs and water hoses on your grandparents but we standing in the street praising the usa for killing osama (Which I'll add is not dead, or responsible for the extermination of the world trade center) . F&%$ The World. Working these meaningless jobs that gives us scrap to survive on, and I dont want to hear about  going to college to better yourself.Yeah you go for some years get a career, make good money but you dont make a difference in the world.Your just a pong being sacrificed. See we thought that they start letting us sit at lunch counters and use the bathroom facilities with them because they had a change of heart but really  what that did was give us nothing to fight for.See as long as we had something to fight for we were not satisfied we couldn't be bought but now we are a race of sell outs.We comprimise our families and our positions in this world for the approval of devils.. F&%$ The World... Usually I would start this next segment off with I don't mean to offend but whatever.Stop Stop Stop giving these "Gay" people a pass.The shit is wrong ok..End of story..How in the hell can we raise children in a society where they have free reign to decided if they want to be a man or a woman after the choice has already been decided.WTF...These dudes these days  is suspect.Pink shirt wearing, D.L, skinny jean wearing imposters.I can only read about men who stood for something , who looked in the eye of the oppressor and said F#$% You.Now all I see is just a bunch of black Sambos..(Look it up) ...And its not even a black thing but any people or race thats being oppressed.We gotta fight the powers that be...I dedicate the rest of my life to raising my fist and fighting for the oppressed people.Raising the bar in our communities and restoring a sense of "Revolution" to combat the Genocide of my people,all people,we can't back down.Mind elevation..F%$# The World...

Da Certified Star....

I remember the day I saw her.It was a regular day much like today,at work thinking about everything but work.Searching my mind to find relief from my present condition.Then it happened , she spoke to me ,and before i could even look to see her face the feeling I felt made me afraid.I'm feeling like a school boy again.Anticipating what I might see when I look up, our whole life together flashed before my eyes.I seen the Love that we shared, the pain that i caused her.I saw her face as we laid together and spoke of things that neither of us knew would happen.I seen walking into her apartment and saying "Baby I'm here".I smelled the food she made us for dinner as she bends the corner of the kitchen smiles and says "Hey Baby I''ve been waiting for you".At that same moment I felt her lips press against mine.The scent of her filled my nostrils.I felt the sweat from her breast as we shared eachother.The laughter the morning after as we wrestled around the house.I reached in my pocket and pulled out one hundred movie stubs , from times we frequented the theatre.I looked at her feet and saw the times that i would rub her feet as we set on the big red couch.I saw her legs and the strength in her thighs and felt her pull me closer. I thought about the days she would want to please me so she would dance for me.She made her body do things that made my body do things..lol...The way she elevated her hips and looked back at me made me feel like a king.Her waist was small and it made me think of the embrace I would feel.The times I put my hands around it and pulled it closer to me.Her breast nourished me, it was where I would lay my head countless days and nights . It was where she would console me in my hard times.Through all of this I finally mustard the strength to look at her face.I raised my line of site and the first thing that I realized was her lips.The lips of a queen.Her lips were shiny like she used honey for lip gloss.Her teeth were white as the line paper you get in a new journal.Her nose was slender and soft looking (no shine). All of a sudden I felt heat, I'm thinking I'm about to pass out ,It was the heat from her eyes, a fiery brown warm stare.Her eyes were wide ,filled with mystique,it felt like "vodoo".Her hair was jet black like a panther and it had this bounce to it that even when she stood still it moved just because..And then a tear came to my eye because with all this beauty and majesty I saw in the future past the pain she would endure being with me.I saw her alone in a room,scared,confused.I saw her in the arms of man she did not Love but tolerated as she though of me.I saw her lips turn to coal due to the smoke of anger she breathed.I saw her body wither to almost nothing.I saw her with no where to go and no one to turn to....I snapped back and came to myself and she is standing there and I look up and she says to me "Hey ! want anything from the vending machine?" Mountain Dew I replied.Tried to give her my money she didn't take it.I watched her walk away and the only thing i could say was... I see u...She looked back as if she heard me and said "Come with me"....Da certified Star...

Knowing When To Let Go...

          I have found that in life you meet two kinds of people...There are the ones that are in your life forever and then there are the ones that are there for a season of your life...Determining the two bids the biggest issue for us all.Usually this is apparent in relationships between male and female.There are some people that come into our lives to teach us things to get us over the hump (whatever the "Hump" is for you) to give us a boost in our present and future situations.We are to learn from these people and recognize there function in our lives.The "Forever people" if you will, are far far and in between.These people are a gift from the most high and in most cases act as a guardian or more like a messenger.What do I mean by "Messenger"? This person usually can tell you about yourself ,things that a the seasonal person can not really grasp.This person gives you insight and acts as the inspiration on your shoulder, be it good or bad. In all of this comes a warning as well.When the time comes for this seasonal person to exit,depending on the way you have handle this can prove to be difficult,unhealthy ,stressful and in some cases deadly. I'll give an example: You meet a woman,she's nice, looking, smelling all of that. Appears to be the ideal woman for you ,somebody you want to take home to Mom, right? Well as the relationship grows you fail to establish what type of person this is to you, is this a forever person or a seasonal person? So, you invest time,money and then without warning something goes wrong, you find out that what looked and smelled good turn out to be bitter and ugly.Now, you figure people go through ups and downs in relationships and they can be worked out but you realize that this is something that can not be fixed,however in the process of determining this you have had sex, she has met your family,she knows where you work you know where she works.You are attached by the hip but your personalities are trying to pull apart, why? Because this person was sent for a season to show you something that you failed to learn.So the relationship becomes bitter and now you hate each other.Windows busted ,name calling ,Playing on your phone , and in most cases depending on how long this goes on children are involved. Why you ask? I'll tell you why!!! Seasonal breaks up are violent break ups because this person was only meant for a season..So what happens when you get cold air in one season and hot air in another..Thunder and Lightning and Storms..Until we realize are mistakes that lesson will continue to repeat itself, so you'll continue to have bad relationships until you distinguish the seasonal from forever and realize the lesson this person brings..Same test different questions.. In life, you can't move on to the next subject until you have dealt with the "Subject ....".

Where Do I Begin????

Where do I begin…? From as long as I can remember my life has been filled with question marks. Questions that continue to remain unanswered . Funny thing is I am completely aware of these questions but I refused to look hard enough to answer them. I’ll admit, like everyone I possess an alter ego. I know what your thinking “This dude is crazy” but if you think hard enough there is the person that you see yourself as and the person everyone else sees you as. The dilemma you run into is which are you? Over the pass few years I’ve come to the conclusion that I am neither .I am not the person you think I am or the person I think I am .So you see where this can cause confusion. If we can all get to the place where we can recognize the differences within ones self , maybe we will understand the changes we go through. Greater restraint will be exercised in intense situations….First there is De’Lorean…. This guy is mild mannered ,talks very little, very opinionated ,optimistic ,but withdrawn. De’Lorean gets hurt a lot because he cares for the world and tries to save everybody, even when they don’t want to be saved. Then there is Seven… Seven speaks his mind, non-compromising , only believes in what he sees, articulates well. Walks around with a ball of fire in his chest .Seven has a chip on his shoulder from all the hurt and the pain that he endures . Seven is vengeful .. Then There is this other guy who I cant quite put my finger on but if I had to describe him the word that comes to my mind is “chameleon”. Definition: Somebody who rapidly changes personality and appearance ..This dude no matter what seems to cause the most trouble. Surprisingly subtle , and also non-compromising. However , changes appearance to help in situations that may cause trouble in the end.. Have to keep him under control.. He will say anything to keep control of a situation…Again if we are honest we can see a little duality in us all…I’m praying for the strength to control these…